Alone again.

"B-because I want to be?" Sisky blushed. I'm a terrible liar.

"Thank you," he took his pants gratefully and carefully turned so his back was to the Butcher before standing up to put them on. It wasn't like Butcher hadn't seen his butt before since the whole band had watched him get it tattooed.

He couldn't help but glance over his shoulder at the other man as he slid his jeans slowly up his legs and zipped his pants shut. Please like what you saw and forget about what I've done.

Butcher cleared his throat slightly as he watched the boy dress in front of him, the sight of his bare behind was hardly a rare one but none the less, the look in his eyes was a bit of a new treat for him. "What is the real reason though? People don't just ... get naked." Please don't say Bill."

"Hmmm?" Sisky smiled, his eyes still a little dazed from the joint he'd smoked with William and Gabe. "Oh. I took a swim earlier and then..." And then I let Gabe fuck me...

Sisky sat down and put his head in his hands, "Oh God." Just go away. I'm not worth it.

Butcher winced slightly as he saw his little Santi fall to the ground, a bit unsure as to what had caused such an outburst. "You okay Sisk?" He asked as he moved over to kneel beside him.

Sisky looked up at him with his eyes full of tears. "No. You're going to hate me, and I don't blame you. You should go find somebody else, like Mike maybe if he's still..." He choked up and was unable to continue the sentence. "You deserve better."

"But I don't want Mike." He said with a hint of laughter in his voice although his heart was breaking. Why do you let him take advantage of you? "What did you do?" He questioned, really not wanting to know the answer.

Sisky bit his bottom lip, "Do you want me to tell you?" His eyes widened slightly in fear. "I-I... We got high again." It seems to be a bad pattern. I should give up that stuff and go straightedge.

Wincing slightly the Butcher leaned in closer and took a deep breath, "Who is we?"

Sisky realized his slip and groaned inwardly. "Um... William and Gabe."

Choking back a wreching noise he stumbled to stand up, not wanting to leave but not able to sit next to him. "Both of them?" I had to fall for the naive one with a drugs problem.

Choking back a wreching noise he stumbled to stand up, not wanting to leave but not able to sit next to him. "Both of them?" I had to fall for the naive one with a drugs problem.

Sisky scratched his thigh nervously and stared down at the ground. "Butcher," he whimpred and continued in a whisper. "I've got no excuse. I wouldn't forgive me either." Fuck, that was as good as yes.

Sisky wanted to go after Butcher and throw his arms around the other man so badly, but he knew he didn't deserve that right. He'd given up the right to touch Butcher the first time he'd given in to William. Now he wasn't even worthy to look at the one he really loved.

Butcher gulped down and turned around to look down to Sisky, a sympathetic expression plastered on his face. "Do you really love me?" He questioned, the need for an honest answer evident.

You can't love me, if you loved me you'd be able to be with me and not want anyone else.

"Yes," Sisky said without thinking about it. "I love you more than anyone or anything on this damn island. I promise I'll do anything if you take me back. Please?" He looked over at Butcher shyly.

I'll give up William's friendship. I'll never talk to him or Gabe again.

Don't be his .... No. That is stupid and jealous. Butcher cleared his throat and moved back over to close the distance between them, his eyes focusing on Sisky's, "Can you promise me that it wont happen again?"

"I can promise you that," He nodded. "I'll wait for you." He slowly scooted closer to Butcher. "However long you want to. And I'll stay by your side."

Looking down and into his eyes the Butcher let himself pretend for a moment that he could believe that. "You promise you wont want to run?"

"I don't want to run," Sisky threw his arms around Butcher desperately. "Please believe me. I love you." And William scares me. There's no competition.

"Gabe?" the color drained from Sisky's face. With a baby? I'm not going to ask...
He half-hid himself behind the Butcher. "I can't go to William. I'm sorry."

"Fine," Sisky squeaked. "But I'm taking Butcher with me."
I can't trust myself alone with them.
He reached down and grabbed Butcher's hand, looking up at the other man briefly before turning to Gabe, "Lead the way."

[Hope you don't mind I'm dragging your character around with me Cassie xD]

Sisky let go of Butcher's hand and gave Gabe a quick hug. "Hey. I don't want Tom and William to be hurt either, but I still think Butcher should follow. We might need the help?"
He stepped back to the drummer's side with a small sad, smile. "Okay Mr. Saporta. You're the boss."